May 2nd. I'd Never Be the Same

A quick flip to the jazz channel on the television schools me in the Sunny Side of the Street.  Today is the day is the day is the day.  It is always the day.  

I read something in Use Your Brain to Change Your Age (by Daniel Amen) today. Dr. Joe Dispenza's was mentioned.  As I visually trolled through the bullet points I stopped at Firm Intention.  And you know how you know something but then you read it again and you are being reminded in a very real way?  He says "But when you really truly make up your mind and are in a state of firm intention - that is, you absolutely know  that you are going to follow through on a new way of thinking or acting, you can almost feel the hair on the back of your neck stand up.  You are saying to yourself, with deep conviction, ' I don't care what anyone else says or does.  I don't care what happens or what challenges I face.  I don't care how hard it is.  I am going to do this.  I am going to change.' When you are at this point of serious, firm attention, your body sits up and pays attention.  It knows the brain means business  And the body will now follow the direction of a firmly convinced prefrontal cortex."

I know this place.  I've been there a few times before and it hasn't steered me wrong.  I've steered me wrong or allowed others to put things into my head.  But I know when I get that aligned heart and mind feeling, that I will follow through and get where it is I was planning to be.  I know that this needs to be done again.  I've unlearned this over the last couple of years, but have seen glimpses that it does exist.  

Time to live life fully....

backing into a room, kissing fully with hunger

the scent of soap that intrigues

artwork of hot air balloons and 

dreams on paper

I didn't forget it.  It's one of the best places to be. It makes me glow.  I plan to immerse in it soon.  With love, lots and lots of gentle love.  Gentle on me, gentle on life, gentle on he who should have it.  

We are capable for sure.  We can do this.  I don't care what anyone else says or thinks about it  - let me look like a crazy person.  It's okay, it's a small price to pay, so small.

Two lovers in the rain have no need of an umbrella.  ~Japanese Proverb