Amped Prayer

Happy Spring all! Even though its been Spring for a few moments already. It is actually dressing the part now with flowers springing up here and there.

My prayers have been answered once again. I needed to move - long story behind that, which involves an ex who bought a home with me and then walked out of it after two mortgage payments. That's old history, and one that helped me reclaim my life as well as personal, social, creative and artistic freedom. Back to now since I won't say much more about that as I am on Divorce Row and don't want to end up on Good Morning America for dishing the dirty. Not only that, but karma has kicked my pompous buttocks numerous times straight up through last year so something has to change.

I checked out a place that seemed ok - I wanted a change of scenery and found a good deal in a more upscale community. It was affordable because it was basically outside of a train station. That's kind of where I live now. I tried to talk myself into it seeing as the school system would be prime. However, it didn't exactly sit well with me. I wasn't amped. Nothing in the paper made me feel like YES I SO WANT THIS! I'm one of those people who freaks when she knows what she wants. I get really excited, uplifted and lose myself in all kinds of plans about it. Notice that I said *when* I know what I want.

I previously made a list of what I wanted in a place to live. Of course when I made the list, I more or less was copying notes straight out of 100 Ways to Describe Brooklyn, NY. I took the list out again after feeling sort of flatliner about everything in the classifieds. I couldn't think of a single place where this would bloom forth.

Until a Tuesday. There was a new classified that wasn't there previously. The price was outstanding, almost $200 less than I was looking at for everything else and pretty much down the road from where I am now. I called and planned to see it after work that day. But I kept getting that nagging feeling that I needed to see it immediately, that it really couldn't wait. I left work and walked into the space that would turn my Amp on. Everything about it made me Wowwwwwww. I swooned back down to the application and offered to put it all down but had to wait. Credit check, other applicants, etc. Booooo. Think positive, think positive. The place felt like me. The energy registered like a key in a lock when I walked in. A perfect fit.

I started to get antsy back at work. I just knew that this was our place. How couldn't it be? Or really, how could I actually go back to viewing the classifieds in black and white after sliding off this rainbow?

Turns out, my prayers were answered. And now the kitchen has changed to Banana Peel, as dictated by Humanling. I get this certain vibe when I really and truly connect and want something - of course it is for the good of all for the time frame it is occuring in. I connected with that vibe - or maybe our prayers are heard when they are really on par with what we want. Why would God give us something that we are half-hearted about? We can do that on our own with our hasty decisions. Such as mine was to get married this last time. I had the warning, the red flag, the niggling that told me it wasn't a good idea. I bought cleats two sizes larger and stomped the warnings into oblivion. I nearly dodged lightning bolts with razor blades on them. I know now that I really should have acted on the information coming through. But we can always rise out of that knowing so much more and become more equipped to deal with when we feel we are standing in as life's dartboard at times.

I love this new place so much. It is almost everything that was on my list. The things that it didn't hit were things that are either not really that important or things that don't take much effort to get to.

I recently finished reading "Zero Limits" by Joe Vitale. I find that I am using the method described in his book when I come across anything that does not resonate on a higher and loving flow. Given two ex husbands and a workplace where people enjoy standing right on top of you when they speak to you, I have many wonderful opportunities. I don't actually speak to Ex #2, nor do I have anything productive to say to him. Except Get Off my Car Insurance Please. Ex #1 and I remain friends. We've got a long history and were friends before we turned into spouses and then Exes on the family tree for our daughter to reflect on. I find that when I answer a problem, even just in my mind, with love instead of hate, revenge and their siblings of lower thought, I feel much better. And that allows me to feel relief, to know that I did the right thing. Part of me is a karmic coward. If I do all those little creative ways of getting even, I will be waiting down the road for the Heavenly Shoe to drop, when its time to Come On Down to that game called Reap What You Thought Was So Funny and Bragged About Back Then. I've seen it play out....blow by blow....what I've done to others earlier in life, has been regifted back to me. And we all know how popular regifting is. I'm now about the Pay It Forward Regifts, therefore, I have to perform many more of those merely for the joy of doing it.

Many people wonder how to acheive their goals and if God hears their prayers. My problem is usually figuring out what makes me pray with all my might. Once I have a true and absolute want in sight, its often graciously answered. What color do I like? They're all good. All ice cream is good, you can be happy living anywhere (except next door to a chemical plant, like I do now. Will post down the road if I grow a tail), I'm never bored....I'm just one of those people who can 'make do' and changes color to suit the scene as long as it doesn't infringe on my simple list of absolutes. Darwin would love my series of adaptations. But I do know that when I really see the right thing in my mind, I've got good help upstairs. My heart tunes in and I can really know what I'm asking for.